Need opinions

Ok so I’m 8 weeks pregnant and trying to be happy but keep getting upset and irritated every time my husband always says adoption is an option, and you didn’t really get an option with Ian my oldest that I was forced to give up because of the situation at the time. Whether I would have had a option or not considering giving another one up and feeling that not only will my oldest resent me for it my last one will too is how I see it. Maybe they will or maybe it’s all in my head I don’t know. But according to him he never gets anything he wants and until he can at least have one thing he wants or someone listen to him for once or something, I feel I will never hear the end of this. Yes I get depressed because I had to give up my first born child. I try not to be it’s just not as simple as people make it out to be. He says I need to change before this baby gets here or things aren’t going to seem any better.