the saddest post I've written yet...

I need to vent and this is the only place I feel safe doing so. No judgement plz. I'm not posting anonymous because it's a sad reality that Im sure I won't be able to prevent as much as I wish it wasn't me posting this.

Ever heard of a part time dad? Well that's how I feel my babies dad has been... the first week he was so helpful especially the first 2 days in the hospital! My daughter is bottle fed so you'd assume we can both do feedings. Not even so much both because I love feeding her but you'd expect him to want to help in general. I mean, cmon dude it's your child as well how can you not want to help?? 

I get no support from him whatsoever when it comes to our daughter. No changing no bathing no feeding he won't even watch her so I can take a nice shower every once in a while. I always tell my self, it'll be his loss in the end. And that's the truth. I love my baby girl I can't imagine how someone (her dad)  wouldn't give up there all for her. Tonight specifically I'm ranting because it's 3:40am and her dad always complains that he's too tired to feed her or even watch her in the morning for 20 min while I run to the store or whatever. Anyways it's 3:40am and he's an hour away by where he works drinking with his friends. He got off of work at 11pm. 

Tell me I'm not alone dealing with this shit. 😑🤦🏻‍♀️ rant over.