Normal??

I’m sitting here wishing I had had the option for a c-section with my son.. he was 9lb 8oz and when he came out he twisted and ripped my cervix really bad I almost bleed out. And now I’m 3weeks PP and every time I wash down there I can feel the scar tissue.. everything is swollen and my vaginal opening is pretty much blocked by a strange mass that I’m sure is scar tissue.. I don’t think sex will ever be the same if I can even want to try and I was told I probably won’t be able to have any more kids. My son is an amazing blessing and I love him so much, I just wish I had had an option for a c-section so I wouldn’t have been wrecked so badly🙁