What the actual fuck... 😪😪

So my SO and I have been together for 1 year and almost 3 months. We decided to get engaged last year November. We were only together for 3 months but my family loved him his parents love me etc. we started talking about kids the next month and found out we conceived December 18th. Lost our baby February 2017 at only 9 weeks. We've always been the type of people that weren't comfortable with opposite sex friends. He started working with me October 3rd. We're now waiting on the arrival of our little boy, currently I'm 22 weeks. About a week ago I asked him what was going on because he all of a sudden wanted female friends. He said nothing. I asked him to introduce me to this new female friend of his and he started bugging telling me no. That I was trying to be petty. Which wasn't the case. I told him baby steps so I could at least start to feel comfortable with it. So we get into this argument because he wanted to take this so called break. I for one don't like breaks either we're together or not. But I talked to his mom and she was like just give him a few days.. that night of our argument I just completely flipped out throwing dresser drawers, broke the tv, and ended up in the hospital. I'm not a violent person, haven't gotten physical with him since the beginning of this year. I'm not proud of myself to be typing this but it's true. Don't wanna leave anything out. We're only 20. He was there in the hospital with me and all. Now I honor this break of his and the whole time he's telling me we'll get back together next week Thursday. And tonight we're at work texting each other and he comes out says " I'm not who I want to be, I don't wanna hurt you, I don't want you to take my child away because of our relationship status, blah blah blah. " the fight we had happened Saturday since then we've been on this break having sex talking about our apartment and the baby. Now he's texting my phone saying I don't wanna say we'll never get back together because there's still a chance.. idk what the fuck to do.