I don’t know what to do anymore.. opinions please
I’ve been married for 2 years now but we dated for 4 years before getting married.
We now have a one year old who we love to DEATH! She is my absolute everything and a dream come true.
That being said.. I just can’t take this marriage anymore. But I don’t want to divorce my husband over just anything. I’ve always told myself that unless I was getting abused or cheated on or just absolutely miserable, I need to work it out. But fuck! I just get so tired of him. He’s always been a drinker (idk why I thought he’d stop one day) he even got a dwi the first year of our marriage. Right before Christmas. And lost his job due to that. He was jobless for 4 months and that’s the longest he’s stayed sober.
His drinking drives me up the walls and makes the devil come out of me. I hate it so damn much.
Once our daughter was born he’s stopped his drinking and driving (cause yes even after just one beer he would drive) until tonight. He came home more than buzzed and I just went ape shit on him because he snores louder than a fucking freight train.
He will never stop drinking unless he lands himself in jail. He’s never put me or our daughter in danger and will NEVER drive after drinking if she is with him. But that doesn’t mean that he should still do it if she’s not.
We also fight so bad sometimes (most of the time) and he brings out this rage in me..
Honestly I’ve told him straight up I wouldn’t want our daughter to end up with someone like him.
On a positive note, when we’re good.. we’re so good. He’s able to let me stay at home with our daughter, which is a dream come true coming from a mother who worked her ass off to provide for us.
But it just seems like there are more bad days than good. And I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve thought about counseling but I just don’t think he would take it seriously.
Oh and what our fights are 50 percent of other than the drinking... my mom! He is so jealous of her for some reason. We’ve always had a close relationship but he just can’t stand it or her! And I don’t know why!! I’ve always put him first and even she knows I will but he just can’t stand her and that makes my blood boil cause his family can be such pieces of shit but I still respect them!
Any advice?! Please help this confused, sad, and tired wife and momma out 😪
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