Just giving up!!!

After being almost 2 weeks late Af shows up. I just hate the fact that I’m letting my SO down. Obviously it’s me with the fertility problem because he has kids already . Doctors say there is nothing wrong . But it has to be . I also miscarried in July . After trying soooooo long . I hate that is women have to pay a lot of money just to get something that are bodies are suppose to be made for. I don’t even see how god can allow people who kill and mistreat their kids , their are actually women who are in this world that would die to have child and we can’t ... I’m just giving up .. I don’t care anymore I know it’s not gonna happen