Depressed

Period still isn’t here after 23 days, 1 vvvvvfl, 2 invalids and I still don’t have the courage to do test again. Can’t handle a BFN, can’t handle reading all these happy stories because despite feeling happy for them I die alittle inside because it’s like I’ll never get mine. Never get the happy tears, the wonderful feeling of feeling a life grow inside me, never get a baby shower, and it breaks my heart.