Getting closer to birth and I don’t think I can do it.

The other day I woke up from a nap on the couch all confused and touched my stomach. I gasped and for about 5 seconds I forgot I was pregnant.

Moving on to today.

My upper middle back hurts just from sitting. My belly feels like it’s a stretching plastic bag if I stand or walk for too long.

I can’t eat more than half a meal or I feel like I’m going to explode.

TMI: sometimes a little trickle of pee comes out if I, for example, laugh too hard and for some god awful reason it makes my undies smell like ammonia.

I can’t imagine doing this ever again and I barely have any symptoms! I’m uncomfortable and now I realize I am super close to giving birth.

I wanted an Unmedicated birth but WHO THE HECK AM I KIDDING.

I can barely make it up a flight of stairs without panting, let alone actually push a human out of my vagina while I writhe in pain.

AND THERES MORE PAIN AFTER???? Good God, bless you all. I don’t the strength.

I really can’t right now. This is all too much.