I want to begin this post by saying everyone's experience is different. This was MY experience and I feel the need to share it.... They are sure to tell you about the emotional and psychological pain of losing a child but no one can prepare you for the gut wrenching physical pain. They don't tell you that pain will last for days and something as simple as getting your hair highlighted will land you in the bathroom for 15 minutes sufferring in silent pain. They don't tell you that you will look at your husband and cry wondering whether your child would have had his nose, ears, lips, etc. They don't tell you how upset your husband would be to see you in all that pain and to feel so helpless. They don't tell you that the bloodwork you were so afraid to give would become a weekly event for you. They don't tell you that it will make your relationship with your husband stronger. They don't tell you how you will pray for complete strangers going through the same thing to find their peace. They don't tell you that this has happened to many women who will come out to you and offer you comfort during your struggles. They don't tell you how much you will appreciate your second pregnancy, including the aches and sickness. They don't tell you how much easier it will be to talk about it. They don't tell you that the first time you see your "rainbow baby's" heartbeat you will want to cry from excitement and sadness all the same. They don't tell you how blessed you are because you are a strong, beautiful mother who has a huge suprise waiting for you in heaven ❤ I love you my sweet angel 👼💙