Am I being ridiculous?!

My husband and I have only been ttc for 3 months, however within those 3 months I have had 3 acquaintances/friends fall pregnant from one night stands.

One of them decided to have an abortion as she is focusing on her career.

I would never judge a women on her decision to have unprotected sex or an abortion, so I in no way was upset or angry with these 3 women.

I did however, find myself in tears, extremely disheartened and questioning my own ability to successfully create a tiny human, each and every time I heard their news.

Am I being ridiculous?!