Waiting is the worst

My husband and I have been TTC for about 8 months. About 5 months ago I experienced a chemical pregnancy. Although I told myself I shouldn’t be upset because things could be much worse, I found myself depressed for several months every time my period showed up.

This month I began to spot about a week prior to my expected period date. Very light spotting and I’m usually on time every month. The spotting also came with some cramping. Nothing like before when I experienced the chemical pregnancy. But still I felt a fit of worry come over me. “Wonder if it’s happening again...”

My normal period is expected tomorrow or Saturday. I took a pregnancy test today and it came back negative. This also happened the last time, when I ended up experiencing a chemical pregnancy.

Realistically, I know I should just be patient and test again next week. Again, that’s how it occurred last time. But I’m just worried... am I pregnant? Am I experiencing another chemical pregnancy?

Waiting is the worst 😞