After 2 weeks, my SO and I saw each other. I went to his apartment and as soon as the door closed, I kissed him so good and hard. It felt so good to kiss him after such a long time. We haven't been doing well in our relationship because he isn't willing to hangs his life style. And I can't find the courage to let him go. We made such great love and took a nap together. I'm tired of giving him money all the time and I'm losing myself with the things I do for him and go against my faith for him.