Oral😔😔😔

Ok...so I’m a female whom loves receiving oral - who doesn’t right???

I’ve been with a guy for around 9 months - before him I hated giving oral but did anyway to please past partners. With him - I love giving him oral. Watching his eyes roll back, fists and toes clench and listening to the soft groans he lets out😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

anyway - he doesn’t return the favour😔

I’ve tried speaking to him about it and he says “it’s not my thing” - but it’s something I really really like😔 I’ve explained it’s made me feel like there’s something wrong with me etc, and he’d said he’d try more often, and hasn’t😩 trying to communicate as much as I can about it with him but he ignores me, or avoids the topic, and I just feel like I’m pestering him and being silly but it has turned into a legit need😩😔

I’ve never had this with any past partners - how would you feel/how would you approach this???

Am I being stupid????