Emotions!!! Advice???

Period was due on the 19th of April and still not here!!! Took a few tests but all BFN so I stopped and have t tested for about a week. Scared to test again cause I just want my BFP that I feel ill never have (TTC 1 year+) but today I over slept and me and my hubby had plans....nothing big just to hang out and watch a movie cause right now we have conflicting schedules so don't see each other much. Well I just bawled like a baby and no matter how hard I tried and how dumb I felt for crying I couldn't stop!!!! My emotions have been taking me on a roller coaster I wish I could get off.......any advice???