Baby fever!!!!

I’ve been having baby fever since my mother passed away a year ago. I had a dream that she was holding a baby and ever since I’ve been having baby on the brain. I’m not really trying but I’m not preventing it. When I was really trying I was getting disappointed every month and I gave up. I took a test today just for the heck of it. Maybe I’m crazy but I see a faint line. Honesty is the best policy with me so what do you think?