Sad Girl Rants About Her Self Pity

I wanna quit! We've been trying for a year... all the tracking, timed sex, supplements, tricks, prayers, everything! I don't understand what is keeping us from conceiving. My husband is very healthy and I have normal periods like clockwork. We haven't had any official tests yet because we were gonna give it a year, and finally it's been 1 tough year. So I started looking at a local fertility treatment centers website and I noticed they had a 'costs' section. Shouldn't have clicked... "As low as $200-250/mo for treatment!" ARE YOU KIDDING. He's in the military so we just moved across the country and bought a car, and I don't have a job yet. On top of that, he's deploying in about 3-4 months. We don't officially know when or where yet.

So that's it. We have 3, maybe 4, months to try to conceive before we're separated for a year. And based on the last 12 months, I don't think it's looking so good. I hate being negative about it, but to my credit, months of being positive never helped either 😒 It's made me so depressed. Already I don't want to be away from my husband for that long, but being alone and feeling like there's something wrong with me is making me feel like ~THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE~. I guess we're officially in the 10% of couples that can't conceive in a year. And if it doesn't happen soon we won't be able to figure out what it is til 2019. All I can think of is, "get pregnant while you can, or spend the next year depressed without your husband." Uhhh. Sorry, I had to rant. Thanks for listening.