TWW SUCKS!

I’m 11 days DPO and struggling. Three days ago I had very light spotting on toilet paper then gone along with pretty bad cramps that lasted about three days. I’m peeing like crazy and I feel off. Is this all in my head??? AF expected 19th. I caved and took a test and it was negative. 😐 I went to the store to buy more tests and just in case I threw pads in my cart... like literally threw those fucking things in the cart and even said fuck you pads out loud.