i told him to stop...

ok. so my bf and i were having sex the other day and we did a few sessions. we used condoms but for one of the sessions he didnt use a condom. im on the pill but i still like to use a condom just to be extra safe. so anyways i knew i wasnt comfortable about going in raw. so my dumbass didnt say anything at first but mid way through i told him we should stop and i told him a few times that we should stop. but be didn't. he pulled out and finished. and when he did i just busted out crying. (idk why i started crying i just did i guess i was just worried about getting prego). he was like "baby no dont cry why are u crying" while he was hugging me. and i was like "i dont know why im crying" then out of no where he sprung up and freaked out. he put on his clothes so fast. and sat at the edge of the bed with his head in his palms and i freaked out amd i was like "baby whats wrong". and he was like "wait give me a sec let me think" so i sat there after like 5 min of silence he said "im so sorry" and i was like for what?" and he was like "i know why u crying u told me to stop and i didnt i raped you" and i was like "wait what no u didnt" (i didnt know what to think) and he was just like "im soo sorry i didnt mean to" and he cried he felt so disgusted with himself. i didnt know what to do but apologize because i dont like seeing people sad so somehow i felt like apologizing for the whole thing. i blamed everything on myself. he kept telling me not to be sorry and that he was so sorry. after that whole situation i decided to act like it wasnt a big deal amd we went out to go get some tacos. at the time i really didnt see it as a big deal.

so a few days past and idk what to do. i know he didnt mean to do it. but its starting to bother me now. like idk what to do. idk if i wanna breakup with him or stay with him. like i really like him but this happened and i know he didnt mean too.