Screwed up everything

Few days ago my boyfriend and I had a fight and he told me he was planning on proposing at Christmas. I was saying that he doesn’t love me and he staying with me because of the baby.. I was hurted and he was too so he told me that.. I couldn’t stop thinking about it since then. i wouls have been so happy at Christmas time if he haven’t told me that.. 💔 Now I know my chances are going away for the moment and idk how much time im gonna have to wait 😢