My First Time 😬

Ok Lady’s, yesterday I gave me boyfriend a hand job and it was my first time. It’s what we wanted and I was ready to do it, but it was after we recently had a fight.( the argument was a few days ago when I needed a ride somewhere and the only person there was my ex (we broke up about 3years ago) I had no other option but to accept the ride nothing happened bc I absolutely hate him but my bf still got really upset and angry and was considering breaking up with me. )We talked it out and we are great now, but I don’t know how to be around him anymore without feeling like I’m going to say the wrong thing or make him upset again And I feel like I’m walking on egg shells. It’s progressively getting better the more I talk to him,but I still can’t get over that heart dropping moment. I guess I say all that to say this. Am I being to overdramatic and I just need put it in the past or is this an issue that might progress and get worse. I just need some outsiders input. Please Help