Ttc/anabolic steroids

Hey guys ! My fiancé is a bodybuilder and previously used sterioids . He came off to concieve but so far no luck . A girl in a similar situation just found out she is preg and her boyfriend used for 4 yrs. mine only did for a year and a half , I am happy for her but I can't help but feel jealous . Does anyone have any experience with this . I feel hopeless and I jus want to cry :( . AF  is scheduled to show in 5 days and I'm trying so hard not to test early but I get weaker everyday and have a feeling this is enough to bring me to test tomorrow morning !