i️ was in a relationship for a year and a half, but (and yes ik y’all are already gonna say it’s impossible for what i’m about to say) we never kissed, we were more long distance. I️ met him at school, and i’m not allowed to date and neither is he, so hanging out was hard. he always treated me good until he didn’t and then i would forgive him. i️ actually got diagnosed w a bipolar disorder while i️ was w him and i broke up w him for it. i️ couldnt live wo him... i️ ended up talking to him again and we dated again but still did not see each other. he would continuously tell me he is way more different in person than he i️s on text or ft. i didnt think much of it bc how different can someone be. when i️ did hang out w him, he was awkward or too touchy. it wasn’t even a problem. then he broke up w me over text. he said it was a “rhetorical analysis” and that he wouldn’t tell me what he meant by it. he wanted me to think all the time about why he used the words he used. i️ forced him to tell me. he compared me to a plant because he was trying to say it’s not the time for me and it’s too early bc if it goes on, it’ll die. i️ don’t understand it either. why was he so bad and rude to me most of the time, yet i️ still can’t stop thinking of when he was sweet. why can’t i️ just get over him. i️ was at a football game w my friends and my friend told me she had a streak w him on snapchat that was 206 days long... i️ was speechless considering he told me he didn’t have any streaks w girls. it’s not even something to lie about which is why i’m so confused. then i️ ended up asking his ex (who became friends w me bc he asked her to spy on me by texted me through her number asking about history to see if i️ would reply) and she said they talked. she thought me and him were through. and so they actually talked talked. i️ learned this after he broke up w me. so why can’t i️ get over him. why can’t i️ be happy since he was the one who had no problem w it. i’m not even that bad. i’m not even fat or ugly. he simply broke up w me bc he thought of me as nothing but a distraction. i️ just needed someone to talk to. i️ lost all my friends bc i️ pushed them away. idk what to do anymore, it’s only been 2 months ... but it seems to get only harder. it seems like no one else will want me and it hurts knowing that he’ll actually love someone else. idk if what we had was even real to him. it sure was real to me though.