Terrified

I had a MC in September and this morning I received faint lines. I told my husband last time and I have a video of how I told him to remind me of how happy we were. Upon going to the doctor I knew something wasn’t right the second they said my numbers were low. I miscarried on our wedding anniversary. I felt like the MC ruined our anniversary because I was trying to be happy but I was so destroyed at the same time. I’m excited to be pregnant but terrified to MC again, especially with the holidays coming and so many family thing. I want to surprise my husband but also don’t want to make a big deal of it in case something changes. I want to keep it a secret but I will need his support if something happens. HELP