I lost my son Colton on February 16, 2017 at 20 weeks and never found out what happened. Unexpectedly we got pregnant about a month or so later. I’m currently 33+3 with our rainbow baby, another boy💙 I’m just curious how other mommies went about answering the “is this your first?” question. I feel like if I say yes then I’m denying my first born but if I say no then I have to explain the worst day of my life to a stranger. I know it’s an innocent question and people’s curiosity gets the best of them but I swear every time I get that question I get a knot in my stomach and feel like crying.