Need support/me ranting!

Hi guys! Thank you for reading.

I was pregnant and miscarried in September at 9 weeks. I had a regular cycle in October, and I’m now 5 days late for this cycle.

I’m not entirely sure what to do. I regularly track on this app and we didn’t have sex during my ovulation period (I don’t do bbt so I’m basing that on the apps guesstimation). I know I should take a test, but September was my second miscarriage with the first being a late term, at 22 weeks. I doubt that I’m pregnant but I’m scared to test in case it’s positive because I’m starting to feel a little cursed.

I think I just need some words of encouragement from ladies who have had miscarriages. I just feel like it’s a cycle, I get pregnant and then I get so scared of a miscarriage that I’m starting to feel like my stress levels are causing it.

Thank you for reading and replying!