Friends or more?

I’ve been friends with a guy for some time now. When we first met, we were attracted to eachother, I’d like to think there was some feelings on his side as there was on mine. Over time, those feelings have gone as we both decided we’re better of as friends. Sunday night he texts me and asks whether I’d like to go see a film as we haven’t seen eachother in some time, of course I say “yes!”.

We went to the cinema to see Battle of the Sexes based upon a true story (which I totally recommend by the way) film finishes around 11:30 PM. Since we both have a shared admiration for Emma Stone, he asks whether I’d like to watch La La Land back at his apartment, of course again I say “yes!” in a high-pitched giddy childish tone.

Unfortunately, we didn’t end up watching La La Land, watched some cheap lousy British comedy instead. We’re both laying there on his bed laughing with my head rested on his lap. I can feel his eyes looking at me so I look back and smile nervously. He looks flustered, rosy cheeks, breathing heavy.. I wasn’t sure if I was reading the situation correctly so carried on watching TV. Again, I can feel him looking at me so I ask him if he’s okay, he reaches in and kisses me. We’re both feeling lustful at this point. Cosy, secure, happy, uncertain. I’m quite shy so he would keep checking if I’m okay, unsure whether kissing me was the right or wrong thing to do. We both just lay there feeling... a mixture of emotions. One which you can most likely guess. Things have heated up. I feel shy. He feels overly excited and then he will look me in the eye and say “I want to pleasure you”. I lay beside him feeling flustered uncertain of what to say or in how to react. I just say back “that’s so flattering but I don’t think right now is the time.” Of course he’s disappointed, this has happened atleast once before whilst we were ‘hanging out’ but due to recent conversations I didn’t see this happening at all.

Ladies, why is it that when he had an opportunity to go on dates with me he declined it? But now we’re taking the more friendly approach he wants to be intimate with me?