Almost 6 months clean

So in may my brother/best friend went into the hospital for trying to commit suicide (gun shot to the head) and i cut myself more than I ever did before and i had to go to the hospital later in the 7 months that this has been going on 2 times due to panic attack but next week on the 11(12/11/17) i will be 6 months clean. That is the longest time in a while my record is 1 year so fingers crossed. Stuff is still hell but i have tied drawing the slits on and i kinda works