Is anyone else afraid like me?

I am 32 soon to be 33. On one hand I feel it’s time for me to make a baby and I shouldn’t wait any longer. On the other hand I am terrified at this whole baby making process. My body sometimes shuts down when we try as I freak out. I am great with my sister’s kids. They also love me and just forgets about everyone else when I am around. But the thought of having a living in hing growing inside my tummy, then me having to go through a world of physical changes and actually giving birth either naturally or surgically, just send chill through my spine. Is it abnormal? Is there really a moment when you feel ‘ready’? I hope you won’t judge me.