Antidepressants while pregnant?

This is a long post but very important to me. I’m only 5 weeks along but when I found out I was pregnant a couple of weeks ago I immediately asked my primary care doctor who prescribed them if it was safe to continue my medications for anxiety, depression and ocd. I take two different prescriptions (buspirone and sertraline, which is generic for Zoloft) twice a day and she told me both were safe to continue unless I or any doctor starts seeing any concerns and thinks I should stop.

Well this is my first pregnancy and it’s still very early so I’m nervous about everything and decided I should do what’s right and try to cut down on them and maybe even stop them if I could. But it’s only been a week or so of taking smaller doses than what’s prescribed and I already see a major difference and not in a good way. Before anyone says I shouldn’t change medication without doctors orders, yes I know and I agree but I’m scared of what these medications can do to a developing baby especially this early. But in the few days I haven’t been taking them as I normally do I can already tell I’m starting to slip back into how things used to be for me. I was at a very dark point in my life until I finally started taking my mental health seriously and realizing I needed to make a change and since then it’s been years of trying to find the right combination of medication and other treatments.

The last 8 months have been the best of my life in terms of my anxiety, depression and ocd. The treatment plan I’m on is really working well for me so I’m scared that if I stop, I will go back to the dark places I used to live in, especially with all the added hormones and emotions that pregnancy comes with. But I’m also scared that if I continue it will be unsafe for the baby. I’ve struggled with these conditions for most of my life but have never been so far gone that i considered hurting myself so I’m not afraid that something like that would enter my mind if I quit taking them, but I will feel really crummy and depressed for the next 8 months. I would love to hear anyone else’s experiences and if anyone who is also on antidepressants has gotten any insight from their own doctors.