Crying myself to sleep

I got my period yesterday. I have PCOS and I was on my second round of Letrozol/Femara 7.5mg.

I did not have any AF symptoms or anything. I was feeling pretty good and had some breast tenderness which made me think maybe this round was a success. But I wasn’t feeling positive about this round so i tried not to get my hopes up. I got my AF in the morning and I was like “okay...........its fine.........i knew this was going to happen” so i was fine all day. Went shopping with my hubby ate lunch and dinner.

I was good until last night... i watched a movie with my hubby until 12am.. then went upstairs took a shower and as soon as i got to into bed, I couldn’t stop crying.. i cried for 2hrs and didn’t sleep until 3am...so basically i cried myself to sleep and so today my eyes were looking like they were about the pop out...more swollen than a 🐸 eyes. yeah...i was a mess.. my hubby freaked out.. he had no idea why i broke down haha (of course..men don’t know our pain)

I just feel so sorry to my family specially my hubby. My parents and In laws want to a baby in the family. My hubby really loves and wants a baby real soon and i just feel like I’m letting them down, that Im failing him and its all my fault. Its my fault that we can’t have a baby..

I’m starting round three tomorrow... i have been trying for 2.5years and i just don’t know if i will be able to handle another failed cycle.