Ultra sound date

This is my first pregnancy and so far my due date is August 2 according to my last period. My ultra sound and first doctors appointment isn’t until Jan 12 (a month from now when I’m 11 weeks 1 day. ) does anyone else feel like this isn’t fully real yet? Sounds ridiculous but it’s like I haven’t seen the baby and heard it’s heart beat and I’m so paranoid. My hcg levels are good and I’ve had no spotting/bleeding. It just stinks having to wait another month!