Tired of hiding my sexuality

A few years ago i was talking to my mom about a shitty guy i was dating. The guy told me after months of us dating that he was still in a relationship and planned on leaving the girl at some point. I was so hurt that he had been lying.

Mid way through my mom asked what color the guy was. When i told her his race, she felt like that was the problem and discredited my feelings about the situation.

After experiencing feeling that over and over, I’ve learned not to tell her anything when I’m dating someone of another race, no matter how good or bad the relationship is. She was the same way whenever i tried to talk to her about a friend who was bi-sexual or gay when i was younger, as i looked to her for understanding. She is always pushing her opinions on me and I just cant connect with her when it comes to things like this.

It took me years to develop a clear understanding of how I want to feel and loving who you want to love is fucking okay!

I just had to post this because a second ago, i was crying because i really like this guy who is a different color than me, and i had to lie to my mom by saying I’m going out with friends, instead of telling her I going on a date.

I feel like love still has a long way to go 😞 i hope everyone gets to a point where they can be accepted and love whoever the fuck want to love regardless of race or gender.