Would this upset you?

My partner and I are both 18. His birthday was January in and mine was in March.

I have social anxiety, but he’s always pushing me to try and face my fears. By the time my birthday came around, I was ready to try clubbing but he refused to take me.

He goes out clubbing with his friends once a month, but when I ask to take him to take me he says “I don’t like clubbing”. I ask frequently too. He’s out with them at the moment and didn’t bother to ask if I wanted to come.

He never invites me out, I feel like he’s ashamed of me.

We’ve been together for 3 and a half years.

UPDATE: he told me he was smoking, we agreed never to touch tobacco or other drugs. I’m so fucking angry idk what to do.