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I don’t know if I’m coming to the right place or not, but I need some advice. I’m a 15 year old girl who suffers from OCD and anxiety. I was also a victim of the Manchester terrorist attack on the 22nd May 2017. I wasn’t physically injured, but mentally it’s been so hard. Things have been bothering me a lot recently. My ocd and anxiety has gotten a lot worse, and I haven’t been sleeping properly. There’s something that’s getting me down a lot and has changed me in a negative way because I’ve been holding it in for some time now. I haven’t told anyone, and I don’t know if writing it out is going to help me, but when the bomb went of in Manchester, I laughed. I didn’t know what was happening and I laughed about it. I laughed when 22 people lost their lives. It should’ve been me, not them. I feel terrible about it and I’ve been holding onto it for so long. I just want some advice on how I can try and move on, and how to make my OCD and anxiety better. I don’t want to go back to a doctor either because that involves telling my mum which I do not want to do at all. Please be nice, thank you.