Feeling down and out Af showed her ugly face😩😩

Can any of you ladies tell me how many cycles did it take before you got your Bfp ? We have been timing everything for 3 or 4 cycles and still no luck😩 I know my tubes are open just don’t know what’s going on.... Am I the only one that feels depressed when Af shows her ugly face? Going see a specialist in January this is just to depressing