Before having my little girl, I was already so in love with her. I had a natural (besides being induced) birth planned out for 5 days after my due date.

I was in the hospital the night before my induction to prep my cervix. Luckily I was in the hospital, because my placenta erupted and I was rushed into an emergency c section. I hadn’t’ mentally prepared myself that this was possible and it was very traumatic physically and emotionally.

Now 9 days pp I feel nothing like I thought I would. I know in my head that I love her, but I don’t feel any connection.... I feel like a terrible mother and cannot stop crying every day. I’m thankful my husband is home for right now to help me take care of her. I’m scared and I don’t feel right..