Hardest Christmas Ever....

Today a close relative to me announced her pregnancy at the Family Christmas party, I am very happy for her but you guys, it was impossible to hold back my tears when she told us her due date. I was pregnant (it was ectopic) and I lost my tube. her due date is 2 weeks apart of what my due date would have been. I am not an open individual with my family so they have no idea. In her eyes I was crying tears of joy, really those were tears of pain. If you comment on this please don't mention God, I don't want to be upset with him, and I been telling myself that he has nothing to do with this mess. #juneangelbaby