Just lucky i guess

So about two to three weeks ago i foumd out i was pregnant. We did our first appointment by 8 weeks. I teared up just at my babys heart beat. Everyday i am so scared that i will micarry. I am just hitting nine weeks. My so has as a cousin that has been wanting a little one but with no success. Her husband has genetic thing that has him repudce low semean. So now they have to try IVF. Now we just passed Christmas. Everyone knows we are expecting but i feel so bad for my so's cousin and her husband. I feel bad because they have been trying and we haven't. I am one of those lucky few women who just can get prego. I am so scared that i will loose my special gift. I pray and thank God for such a wonderful opportunity. I am excited but i feel bad because i hate seeing someone go through so much to recieve something that i gained with no effort. I am grateful for my baby. I love it with all my heart. I have been doing everything i am suppose to. I mean i have cut down from having a 20 oz of coffee everyday to a cup every three weeks. Sharing soda with my so. taking vitamins. drinking tons of water. I just some people can get that one wish in life.