5 weeks pregnant Decemeber 23rd 2017. When I first got To the E.R I could barely speak. The nurses kept asking me Questions but the only thing I could say is I was In pain! I was Nauseous, Dizzy, Shaking and hurting! The first room that I got To they gave me a cup to pee in and a gown. I peed only blood in the cup. When I was done I put cup on counter. The boy nurse who was new looked worried when he seen the cup. I already knew what was happening. You just know. So I tell him "Its only blood" while holding back my tears. Immedietly I go in bathroom again with my gown to put on and I start Balling my eyes out. No one came to My room for about 20 minutes. In those 20 minutes. I remember looking at the floor tiles in My E.R bathroom as my blood was falling out of me. Big splatters all over the floor. blood all down my legs. A puddle by my feet. Holding onto the sink so I dont fall over hard if I passed out. I felt my body loosing consciousness. Tears rolling down my face, screaming and throwing up all the stomach acid in me. Blood all over The sink, Toilet, Floor, Gown, Garbage can, Walls and hospital bed. Going back and forth from my bed to bathroom hoping the pain will stop. The pain Was so severe I couldnt wait any longer for a doctor or nurse. I stumble out the bathroom holding onto the walls trying to find the door to hallway. The only one sitting at the desk in hallway is the boy nurse. When I opened the door I said "I need help" He runs to my room and puts me in the bed and says that I need to stay in the bed. They put the little guards up so i wouldnt fall off the bed from passing out, and so I wouldnt get up. When he left again The pain kept getting worse and I kept screaming even louder. The pain I felt Id rather push out 100 babies and break every bone in my body for fun instead of what I was feeling . When They return to my room Im already turning pale cant speak loosing consciousness. The doctor comes in and starts shoving stuff inside of me to see of my cervixs was closed or not. After that. The female who mainly was my nurse came in and said to me "Im taking your blood its gonna be a big poke" All I could say was "DO IT" and I HATE NEEDLES After she was done I looked over to see 7 little bottles of blood and That made it worse. Still screaming in pain They rush me down the hallways to another room Lookin up on those metal half circles and all i see is my body layed out on the bed looking pale and dead. Finally I get to the other room. They took more blood. They hooked me to an I.V and put the blood pressure cuff on my arm. They start trying to ask me questions but I couldnt open my eyes I couldnt open my mouth and I couldnt move. They start pushing on my arm and tapping my face trying to wake me up. I felt them checking my pulse after that I hear a nurse start saying "why is this happening her heart rate keeps dropping" I try to open my eyes and look and the first thing I see Is my finger tips turning purple. One nurse runs out the room to get doctore because my heart rate dropped to 38. They start hooking all these heart monitors to me, And again They rush me down the hallways to another room I feel my life trying to come out of my body. All I see is the lights on the ceiling flashing as they run me to the next room. All I could tell myself was "Hold on you are strong You got this" I felt like I was dying . They start attaching these finger things and connected my I.V to something for nausea. I was still screaming and I felt like I had to take the biggest shit ever but nothing would come out. Blood all over my bed and gown. I ask the nurse for something for the pain. Expecting Ibuprofen because on Drug and Alcohol abuse list for when I was a kid. Another Nurse comes in with morphine for my I.V. Never touched morphine before I was scared because its so strong. after they gave me it I could feel my whole body stop shaking like crazy. The pain didnt stop because I was in so much pain it barely worked, but I felt my body chill out. I could careless about the pain as long as my baby was okay. They take me for an ultra sound 2 of them one abdomal and one vaginal. I get back and my stomach hurts more from them putting stick in me. They didnt give me nothing for the pain after that. After waiting 3 hours for results they finally told me I had lost my baby and my HCG levels had dropped to 20. They told me I was perfectly healthy. Heavy Blood still pouring out of me to this day . But not as much as my tears. I wish NO ONE has to ever go through what I went through. I love you my little Angel Always & Forever 💖😓 And the worst part is still waiting for my baby to come out . 💔 I dont think Ill ever stop hurting. My first baby .