Frustrated. ...

I don't have kids, I'm trying to get pregnant but today 2 of my cousins had their baby's at the same time, our family is extremely happy ; D , but I was in the delivery room with one 24 hours on labor and she was screaming n pain is her 1st child and last she said, it was painful btw she gt a lot of pain medication plus epidural. ... now I don't think I'm that ready to get pregnant I don't want to go through all that pain.... If I get pregnant I'll schedule a c-section. ... I think I gt frustrated font judge me please:/