Sexless relationship

Ironic right? These posts are about people in a relationship having sex and unfortunately I am in a sexless relationship. My boyfriend and I have lived together our entire relationship and it’s been 6 years. When we bought our house 4 years ago I thought it would make our relationship stronger and our Sex life better. At this point our Sex life is non existent. He hasn’t initiated anything with me in years. I stopped initiating when it became just be giving him head and getting nothing in return. I told him I have a problem with it and I want to have sex regularly and I feel like just his roommate when we go to bed at night and he never touches me anywhere. He says I’m not attractive anymore after gaining some weight and he’s not really into sex that much anyway because blow jobs feel the best. I’m horny EVERY SINGLE DAY and think about Sex and wish for it. I’ve cheated and he found out, and we worked through it. I tried to end things a month ago but he begged for me to come home. Then it was the holidays and I don’t know what to do anymore. I want a regular Sex life..... and I really enjoy it and miss it. And I just had realllllly great sex with someone else