Never even found out how far along I was

Do you guys see my super super faint positive? I had to send this photo to my friends and posted it in the BFP group to be sure. Everyone confirmed a super faint positive. I had nausea and severe migraines. I couldn’t finish my Starbucks one day because I about threw it up. I took this test at 5 days late and got my BFP. But before I could retest, I started bleeding. At 7 days late. After two full days of bleeding, my test said negative. Nobody could see me without an appointment and I wasn’t going to go to the ER as I knew that there was nothing they could do. All they would do is tell me what I already knew was happening. I took another test the next day. Stark white negative. This was the very end of Nov/beginning of Dec. I never got to find out even how far along I was. It had to have only been like 4 weeks, but I never got to see the line get darker or see an ultrasound. I know it’s a super early loss, but I still feel devastated. I talked to my gyno a few days ago, and even tho it’s been almost a month, I still cried in her office. She said that it’s not my fault and that it happens regardless of what I do. This was my first pregnancy that I was aware of and I never even got to find out how far along I was. I never got to see that line get darker or even get an ultrasound. I know people have had worse, but I still feel devastated . I’m so sad