My husband...and our pregnancy losses

It’s been 9 days since our anencephaly diagnosis. In 5 more, we go for a second opinion and follow up and hopefully find out it was all a mistake. The odds are not in our favor so if confirmed, a few days after that we terminate the pregnancy.

We skipped Christmas and had not bothered to make any New Years plans yet. Today he tells me our friends invited us to an all inclusive New Years party at a restaurant (prob $150+ each). When I say no, I don’t want to go he tells me “It’s top shelf”. To which I respond I’m still technically pregnant?!!??

Is it me ladies? He’s been semi supportive in a silent way where he’ll actually make his own breakfast and not constantly whine at me that he’s hungry like a child but then moments like this I wonder wtf is wrong w him? This will be my 3rd loss in under a year.

We were on vacation w the same friends when I got my 2nd BFP and then a week later lost it. We were actively ttc so I wasn’t drinking already. They on the other hand acted like frat-idiots throwing glass bottles in the pool where our dog was playing. When I suggested they stop being idiots he said they’re getting rowdy so I SHOULD TAKE THE DOG INSIDE. My hero 🙄.

I really don’t know if we’ll survive this and sometimes I’m not sure I want to. He has more concern and respect for friends or even strangers than his pregnant wife.