Need help

Idk what else to do I feel like I’ve tried literally everything I keep trying to spend time with my ex of 5years who is now my child father because I just found out that I was pregnant two weeks ago but anyways anytime I ask I just feel like he pushes me away always sending me off only time I get to see him and when He asks me to pick him up from work and drop him off at home which he lives with his first babymama I should just give up right I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore and I’m wasting my time I asked can we spend New Years together and he gave me a million excuses I just wish I wasn’t pregnant by him kinda want to get an abortion now