I’ve had enough

Me and my partner have been together for 7 years and ttc for 6. This year we got told we are infertile, our chances of conceiving naturally are so slim that they want to skip all the other ways of getting pregnant like iui and go straight for ivf.

I felt different this last week like dizzy felt sick bloated I took a test 3 days before I was due and nothing but I was hell bent that I could be I took two more test throughout that day but still kept thinking there was a REALLY faint line or I thought maybe it’s to early.

I waited a day tested again and again this morning ( due day) still no visible line.

Finally coming to terms that I’m not pregnant and they only way I’m going to be is by having an assisted pregnancy, man is it a crushing feeling.

I’m sick of the heart ache, the obsession, the depression that follows that one solid line.

I’m also sick of people saying it will happen stop trying and you will be in no time. Me and my partner work opposite hours so it’s hard to “not try” and plan when we don’t get much time together.

I don’t even know why I’m writing on here I didn’t want advice or support just wanted it off my chest.