The baby decision..

Ok so me and the man I’m planning to spend the rest of my life with have been having the baby talk. I have 2 children (6) &(8). He’s got 1 from a previous relationship. I’m 28 years old and he just turned 25, l made the choice many years ago if I didn’t have another by the time I was 30 then I was done. After my daughter I was on the mirena for a few years and had problems had it removed and have been TTC since then with their dad. After we split I ended up just starting to date/ hook up with the man I’m with now. I ended up pregnant less than six months after we started hooking up and I lost the baby the end of July this year. We weren’t trying but we weren’t preventing and he was equally disappointed in the loss. The last couple months he’s been making comments about us having a baby, which still we aren’t preventing since the loss of the baby and so tonight I asked in a serious conversation if he really wanted another. He said yes but idk if now is the time. My heart kind of broke and so I said so are you saying you want me back on birth control because once I’m on it I don’t want to come back off. I’ve told him once I’m thirty I’m done. He made the comment that he’s worried about it. Just a lot I know is because of his ex and the things she did. She took off with their son and with held him from him as long as she could while he fought for his part of custody. Idk what to do. Like I said 2 days ago he made a comment while we were laying in bed about a baby soon enough and today he’s saying we should wait. Do I set up to be on birth control or do I wait it out and see what plays out. I don’t want him to feel like I’m making him choose this. Not sure what to do right now. Sorry ladies any advice is good advice for my confused brain and heart ❤️