baby shower

so my babyshower is coming up and im not really excited. i dont talk to amy of my family nor do i have friends. its hard to believe anyone will show up and if they dont I'll be so embarrassed. the babies father doesnt even want to go. we aren't together but trying to make it work and i stay with him. no one knows we arent together they think we are since we act like we are since we are working on us. but he has this mimd set that someone is going to say something that will piss him off and if that happens theres no stopping him from going off. i know we aren't together but its my first baby and i do want him there but i can't force him. plus if people don't show up maybe it's good he doesn't go just so he doesn't feel like it's a waste of time. my mind is conflicted. he has a child so hes done this baby shower stuff before but they were married. with him and i we aren't together but working on it so maybe it doesnt matter as much as i thought. either way i have to go hope someone shows up