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Hey im 15 years old and i have never had sex or any serious relationships yet i am desperate to have children. it started with having conversersations about the usual "how many kids do you want". From that it grew to deciding names and middle names as if i was genuinely pregnant. I now find myself thinking about it constantly, things like how im going to raise them, ideas for childrens bedrooms and playrooms, i cant get it off my mind. I know i am too young to have kids and i wouldn't have them this young because i know although i would be a good mother too them i would struggle with financial support. I know i have very maternal insticts even when i was a small child myself, my friends and family have always commented on that.

my obsession has got to the point where i am depressed and feel incomplete without them. when planning my future i see children first before i even think about career choices or relationships.

I know that this is unhealthy and i can already see myself suffering. i get insanely upset when i hear stories of people abusing and neglecting their children because they have bought a child into a toxic environment where they wont be loved which really upsets me. if horrible people like them are allowed to have children then why cant i, as i would give the child more love and support and it wouls grow up in a safe environment.

How can i stop myself from wanting a kid so badly its really starting to interfere with my life