I don’t enjoy sex. Am I the only one?

I’ve had six different partners (all male) & no one has done it for me during intercourse. All were of different penis forms (the extreme curve, long & lackey, etc.).

Oral sex is good - gets the job done as I have become a pro at teaching my desires but it’s a different world with penis.

I can’t teach or guide to a place I’ve never been - I’ve tried the solo journey, no luck. Doesn’t feel good. I’m just sick of this bs - I want to crave sex and not hate the craving because I know at the end of the night, I’ll still end up disappointed.

Any thoughts or suggestions? I need help.