Give Love a third chance

I was married to my children father for 12 yrs and life was very hard. Domestic violence and cheating finally he just decided he was over it and left. I am left with a 16 10 and twins that are 8. It is good we all go to therapy and I am a full time student and I work full time. But I recently married again thinking this is bound to be the guy who would love me and my children. He is a twin and we are the same age. But he is sick he is on dialysis and has some other health issues. Well I am 35 and I soon found out why he isn’t married to his first wife was because of his anger and his twin anger issues. His brother attack me and without going into so much details. He left and I was devastated because I didn’t understand how someone I thought was going to be the one would do this to me and my kids. Well I am done with love and I think I will focus on my kids and school and healing. But I just wish I had a glimmer of hope that love would eventually find me. He left and it is coming up on a year and he said he is filing for divorce since I wouldn’t allow his brother to control me. So that means I would be divorced twice. I am actually scared to post this because I am so embarrassed by this big life mistake. I wish I could just get through this faster but I know I have to heal correctly so I don’t chose the wrong guy again but I know I will never find someone who truly loves me and or my kids.

Has anyone found Love after such pain???